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Life Without the Placebos

Followers of this blog will recall reading about my decision about 10 weeks ago to completely abandon the mood stabilizer and the anti depressant I had been taking for several years. The people in my care team, including my psychiatrist, my nurse practitioner and my immediate family were aghast at my decision. They remembered a lot of the problem that had arisen in the past after I abandoned the safety net provided by chemicals. Nonetheless, I stuck to my rights and to  me it has been the best decision I ever made.

Is this something that everyone could do? Probably not. For one thing I have a a lot of coping strategies. I’m highly educated, work experience in several fields, access to resources in person and over the Internet, a pet and a lot of self-understanding. I have people in the programs where I work who complain about their medications and the length of time they have been taking them. However as soon as they remove these medications from their symptoms they begin to deteriorate. To a certain extent their bodies have been trained to look for these medications and their minds keep asking, where’s the stuff?

Even the most ardent mental health advocates usually  recommend a gradual approach to weaning yourself off medications. This process involves finding other strategies, such as one might develop using a wellness recovery action plan. I developed my plan several years ago and I have helped others. These plans cover many different areas such as exercise, coping with environmental triggers, friendship, employment and romance.

When I moved into a clean and safe duplex recently it was a direct result of the success of my wellness plan. My mind responded positively, too, saying, “I like that, give me some more.”  In other words, now that I have a nice place, how about some company? I worked with a woman over the weekend who I have been dying to get to know for more than a year. As it happened, she moved recently and lives about ten blocks away from me. Walking distance, another one of the coping strategies.

I got a dvd player last week and hooked it up to my big screen television. I bought some dvds, watched one of them at home and decided I should bring it to work. My Internet provider ATT forced me into their rebranded service Uverse which sounds like something that the Unitarian Universalists would have created. It’s a little faster than my old service and works better with my blog. And the aforementioned pet, my little cat, has more room to roam around without getting underfoot. That was one of my pet peeves, pun intended, at my old place.

So you can just imagine with all of these things going on, how would ever have time to become depressed? So my advice, for those who want to replace those little placebos, is to get a life. Really, you’ll be glad you did.

Why not take something that works?

I have been judging whether or not medications worked solely on the basis of what kind of results I personally achieved. I figure if I am able to work and maintain myself then the drugs must be working. To a certain extent that makes sense. However I have become concerned that some medications don’t actually work. Am I experiencing the dreaded placebo effect? On my previous blog entry I spoke of feeling depressed in spite of faithfully  taking an anti-depressant. So, why keep taking it?

I  was working, feeling good, and received a raise. So it must be doing something. What i began to sense was dissatisfaction with my quality of life. Like  Simon and Garfunkle said, “Im empty and aching and I don’t know why.” I have set some priorities for my life and yet in the daily work toward achieving them I lacked joy. Is that what we seek when we take anti-depressants?

So many millions of us are taking these pills and I’m curious about whether we are actually feeling better. And what do we mean by getting better? Today I laughed out loud several times. I enjoyed talking with people and going about mundane tasks. I felt more deeply present than I had been for some time. I am still looking for relief from a few minor issues in my feet. I used to take aspirin and rub pain relief cream on my feet regularly and now I don’t have to do those things.

I  can feel that something has  shifted because I substituted a couple of supplements for one medication. I am going to pay attention to my body and think about the kind of answers that I am receiving. Soon I expect to resume my exercise routine. Today’s message for my consumer friends is to ask, are you feeling better today than before you began taking whatever medication you are looking at right now? How can you tell that it’s working? Does taking the medication bring you joy?